Saturday, March 1, 2014

Essay 2 – On Inspiration

                                                                  By Petar Meseldzija 

Last week, John Fleskes from FleskPublications and I have decided that my book on giants will be released in the spring of 2015, with Kickstarter campaign starting in August this year. 


Ogre-Shaman, from The Book of Giants


This book is a major project for me not only because of the scope of its pictorial content (it will include about 120 drawings, as well as a number of  paintings), but also because of its general concept.  As far as I am concerned, the book’s textual part is almost as important as its visual components, which is, I have to admit, a big challenge for me because I am not a writer. The “problem” is that I have all those ideas, and nobody can look into my head better than myself. Fortunately there is one thing that is helping me – the inspiration! Yes, that wonderfully illusive word that has become somewhat unpopular nowadays, to the point that it is considered a taboo in the certain circuits.  Well, this certainly does not apply to me. Moreover, I am thankful  (to whom I don’t know, but I am genuinely thankful) for being able to be in contact with my Muse. I can’t, and will not, speak about HER nature, for I am afraid that my explanation would soon turn into a subjective speculation,  while objectivity is required here. On the other hand, how to talk objectively about something that is so obviously subjective in nature? Tricky!

Anyway, if you asked me whether this inspiration is coming from deep within me, out of the obscure, vast storage of experience, knowledge, information, suppressed  emotions, etc., in short the unconscious; or whether I think it could be attributed to an “external” source, (un)popularly called the “divine”; and under the presumption that these two are considered as separate “entities” (which, in a way, I don’t believe they are), my answer must be – I don’t know! Although most of the time my inspiration can be traced back to the things which were/are on my mind,  however sometimes I really don’t know where all these ideas and concepts are coming from. The only thing I know is that they appear on the surface of my mind, often abruptly, . No, don’t even think about it – I am not talking here about the spiritual visions of any kind (when it comes to that, I am as empty and as talentless as a chimney). Forget “automatic writing” as well. I am simply talking about inspiration, something all of us experience from time to time.

Back to my book - there are moments when stories and ideas just keep on popping up, seemingly from nowhere, so quickly that I have troubles writing them down. I must admit that I am somewhat delighted by this, but at the same time a little sad as well. I can’t remember that I ever experienced such a  strong flow of inspiration in connection to my paintings. Or perhaps it is another type of inspiration, a milder one that stretches itself over a longer period of time, contrary to the latter that often happens in bursts and lasts not very long. In general, painting is for me a bit of inspiration (mostly external) + much of hard work. With writing it is exactly the other way around, the biggest part of it goes to inspiration, or to be more precise – it flows out of inspiration. Because I am not an experienced writer, I have troubles writing without inspiration. It is frustrating, really! Besides, I write in English, and my English is not perfect; yet I dare write in English. A perfect recipe for making a fool of oneself, you might think. And you might be right. But somehow, when inspiration strikes, I am able to write. That is not to say that my writings can be compared to those of the real writers…oh, no, not at all! My writings are very humble and basic. My ideas and the simplicity of expression are the only weapons from the writer’s arsenal which I have at my disposal. You might think, and not without reason, what is to become of such a book then? Has Petar finally lost his mind? …To be honest, I don’t know. YOU will have to tell me later when the book is published! I only know that I have to take that risk. 

It is as if a genie, or a demon, has taken possession of me, and the only thing I can do is to obey him. That is inspiration for me. Is it internal or external? I don’t know. It does not matter to me! The results of this endeavor is what matters, and the impact of it on our development, on becoming more complete as a being, and live a fuller life. The question is not whether the things we believe in are objectively true or not (define Truth!), but instead how much they feed and support the psychic foundation of our lives.

After all, life is an incomprehensible mystery, a miracle, and we are just a tiny particle, a speck of dust in its entirety. Neglecting, or suppressing that what spontaneously arises from the vastness of the unconscious, the psyche, is not the wisest thing to do. In fact it is the road to psychosis. Open-minded and bravely encountering and dealing with it as best as we can, however scary, painful and tricky it might be, is the way of the hero in us. One and the same hero who, after having 1000 different faces, is still eager to have yours, and mine, as well. 
                                                                  

22 comments:

  1. Nice to see that the book of giants it's advancing. I'm eagerly waiting for it! (I will tell about the book and its kickstarter ass soon as it begins, the material deserves it)

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  2. I'll definitely be backing this kickstarter. Can't wait to see and read what you've got in store for us.

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  3. Forget that you are not a writer. Approach it as a creative, the same way you approach your work.
    Don't wait for (writing) inspiration just start by writing down random thoughts and anything that comes to mind. It is like a blank canvas, don't stare at it just put something down and you have a starting point, even if initially wrong. Even writers don't always have inspiration. They have to get in there and hammer it out too.

    These are like thumbnails, next you'll find yourself organizing those to more cohesive thoughts and before you know it it will be written.
    I'll bet Gregory Manchess could put together a "10 things..." list for you on this.

    I agree, no one else can write it for you, get in your head. It should come from you, even if imperfect as a writer. Don't forget to use a Thesaurus.

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  4. Really looking forward to this Petar!

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  5. Speaking of great hands.... very fine work! Thanks for sharing.

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    1. Learning to draw hands properly has been one of my most important projects for the past 30 years of my career. If you can draw hands properly, you can draw everything… after three decades, I am still learning to draw hands.

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  6. Great post. Its very nice and inspiring photography. Thanks for your nice post.

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  7. Well, that sounds quite promising...

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    1. Hi Aleksa,
      I have seen your work. You are an excellent draftsman!

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    2. Quite frankly, I'm learning from the best... so, thank you:)

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    3. Kind of you to say that, Aleksa, but I can't see how my humble drawings helped you develop your stunning technique. By the way, do you speak Srpski? :-)

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  8. Pa, naravno:)...

    There was a time in my childhood in which I was completely dedicated to copying pages from Stripoteka and Tarzan.
    Only recently I have found out that most of those pages where your work.
    Even back then you were a master craftsman:)...

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    1. Well, nothing happens without a reason...Niko se ne radja bez oca i majke...Aleksa, javi se meilom, ako hoces i kada nadjes vremena. Bice mi drago da sa tobom malo procaskam.

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